Monday, December 04, 2006
~Stress~
haiz..tml holiday le but i nw having stress all over my head..probably because of the UT result i get..haiz..unexpectedly i get my first F..f= failed.. i reali tink i noe hw to do and i apply the stupid code correctly but still end up fail and worse still an F.. my first UT F in RP..veri demoralising..haiz.. hw can a D+, E, n F pass my module..haiz...retain 1 yr in sec sch not enough, rp aso giv mi 1 yr..shit manz..i noe it is not over.. still got the last ut.. but i doubt i can achieve an A or B in tat JAVA programming..haiz..worse still..my web aso de same..hope de 3rd ut can pass..hopefully an B den i can cover for my lost gpa..my A's like long lost liaoz..for a my yr 2 module.. 1 A aso dun hav..best onli achieve an B..haiz..nw feeling damn xianz..
was thinking whether wan to go thailand with my boss n andrew anot..i think flying off this sun if no delay..nv reali went abroad b4..but aso miss s'pore...haiz..so many factor to consider..i guess reali need to take a break..i need fresh air in my mind..was thinking abt things that others wun understand..i tink i juz putting unneccessary pressure to myself..i think mi n "her" was a completely different character.. 2 different world of ppl...JC-Retainee...wad i like is completely different from her perspective..i thinking if i never noe "her", hw would my life have been??but i dun regret noeing her coz i think it's worth it till nw..maybe as someone told mi b4..char differences..difficult to blend 1 environment to another..i dun wan to force myself anymore..keep bluffing myself juz take mi to no end.. studies.love all i acheive nothing...nw to mi love life is phobia..i scare to reali take another step forward again.. juz memories juz to be kept...~my life is full of shit~
PP,FYP,CE..all aso haven complete..haiz..wtf i am doing aso dunno...thinking if i wasn't born in this world hw gd it will be..reali sick n tired of the surrounding, ppl and EVERYTHING!!
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
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