Monday, November 27, 2006
_Fake_
hmm..fall sick again..i guess probably because we play basketball during our breakout in the rain ba..hmm..my head feel gliddy...ystd aso nv slp well..i tink slp ard 3 plus ba..ystd went to kah kit hse to watch de match "Man Utd VS Chelsea"..was a nice match to watch..haha..but i guess as a Man Utd fan, the result does not reali justify Man Utd domination....hha..i tink Man Utd shd hav win by a bigger scoreline but tat's football..haha...
juz wondering wad if ppl treat u as a past time tools when u hav been treat her like precious..i juz realise i been a fool for a long time...i dunno whether i'm rite to say this but i juz feel like a tools or in simpler term, SPARE TYRE when u wan to use, u can use den when there's no need of u, u juz go back to the back of the car..sometime like lead actor n supporting actor..a supporting actor nv take the role of leading the show..juz a shadow behind every leading cast...i juz feel terrible inside mi..what hav i not done enough or i juz being make use of..sometime i tink i take thing too seriously..ppl juz neglected hw i feel..sometime i reai feel like things that are used and thrown away...my present state is like ....i duno hw to describe it out but i guess gers have every "RIGHT" to play out guys like mi..i dunno hw to retaliate..haiz...not trying to make myself so noble but i reali tink being someone who reali care ppl feeling doesn't get what he deserve back...
FEeling that is so unbearable inside mi..ppl say thing tat doesn't care hw i feel..they feel happy juz say it..HATRED overcoming my head..i juz hate my fucking damn pissed off life..i hope to reali shake off my past n present juz to hav a completely new life.my present life is like misery..a trash tat ppl use n thrown away..i guess u all wun ever noe..you are r juz thinking i am emo again..if u reali tink so why not switch role or u juz scram off my sight..
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6:20 AM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
~Sick~
hmm..bad weekend for mi..not able to go out because i'm having a bad headache n flu..my head was damn heavy..arg...have not eaten for the whole afternoon until 8 plus..nothing to cook...onli spaggethi.. but i tink beta dun eat that in my situation nw..was left alone at hm de whole day..damn boring...haiz....
seeing my fren who is aso sick but have gf to take care of him juz make mi envy of him..someone to show u concern when u r sick can reali help u to recover faster..esp ur loves one..haiz..getting jealous already...haha..=(
hw i wish i have one gf like his..so caring...hw nice if there's someone to take care of u when u r sick and someone who cook for u when u r hungry...even a plain porridge would taste swt...
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7:35 AM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Holiday soon!
yeah!!holiday coming..i think another 2 week holiday le..haha..been waiting for it since 2 mth ago..finally it arrive..wahhaha..but tinking abt it.. it aso abit boring ba..it will still be work work work n more work.. i wan to work jeen ke work at NUH and aso the takada..haiz..i tink no time left for playing le..haiz..boring!!
hmm..ah bee birthday coming..she opening chalet on 8th dec..hmm..wanting to ask "her" to go but i tink 100% she wun go de..i tink she duno de ppl there which make it veri awkward for her ba..feel like asking "her" whether i stand a chance anot but dun hav the courage to do so..hmm..everytime c "her" online wanting to talk to "her" but scare no topic to talk abt..den like both gone silent again..haiz... wish for de best!!
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12:01 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
~Goong~
juz watched finish goong ystd..hmm.veri nice drama..veri touching aso..de part where chai jin cry when shin is being escort by the police..hmmm..top rating show!!! but the ending like not wad i expected..i expect everyone back at the palace but onli show the grandmother,shin n chai jin at other country onli..haha..i getting "My girl" drama from jk tml..argg..addicted to korean drama liaoz..die!!
sat is jim ROM..argg..need to fork out $$ for the buffet..the worst part is i haven take pay..die le..hope by tat day , manage to get my pay..jim today kanna first prize in 4d..haha..lucky him..b4 his marriage..but his face seem stress manz..
need to slim down liaoz..i tink i getting fatter n fattter each day..haiz...muz control muz diet liaoz..
lastly, i reali cannot tahan his sarcastism liaoz...i scare 1 day , my anger overwhelm my head n tat is de end of frenship..sometime things cant be kept in the hrt coz u scare u may hurt someone but in my case, i dun tink he care for wad i tink aso..so y bother..getting piss off by each of everyday of my life!!!
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6:39 AM
Monday, November 13, 2006
Wedding dinner!!!
back hm after eating my mom relative wedding dinner.."CHRIS N WENDI"..hmm..veri sweet when they show the playback time when they were young till there were nw..swt moment n memory within de slide..that's 1 slide where they were in some sort of hill n the senery at de back were veri veri nice.. they aso show a slide where chris propose to her and funny shot of him being make fun of when he was going to the bride hse..haha...the bride "sister" tease him by asking 5o of his "brother" to wear underwear outside like those supermanz..haha...n aso make him drink their own make "drink"..de drink consist of wasabi,soya sauce n etc..haha..but he still drink it..guess the power of love ba..haha.. den the groom fren aso make him dance sexily infront of his wife..haha..his face was damn red lorx...he drank alot manz..with own made "drink"..wahaha..i think tats veri swt lorz..
back to the food..haha...veri long nv eat shark fin, cod fish n so on le..haha...eaten all at 1 go..wahhaha...all the ppl there like so rich sia..de way they dress n tok so class..argg..dun belong to that grp..
i need to save $$ nw manz..i wan to get married aso..haha..seeing those swt things happen tonite made mi even wan to settle down more..dunno when my "one" will befall on mi..i make sure to have a grand grand wedding to mark my another journey life..HOPING TO SETTLE DOWN!!! earn more $$$$$$$...
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7:50 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Sigh!!!
haven been able to find time to blog this while..hmm..trying to cover my laziness..haha..haiz..die le la..fri de math paper 2 i mess it up le..haiz...no time to finish 3 ques in section A n 1 ques of sec B..haiz..got to retake nxt yr le..haiz..another 100+ gone..argg...if next yr aso cannot pass, den i cannot get my diploma cert le...god bless mi manz..reali so embarassing.. retake so many time stil cannot pass...arggg..
ystd went out with jk n xy which andrew join us later at nitez...3 of us went to marina to eat yuki yaki..haha...damn full..everytime eat buffet sure end up having to stuff the food to our stomach..haha..i thought is those can order soft shell carb de but is another version of seoul garden..haha...de ice cream veri unique lehz..make ownself de...haha...we den make our ice-cream in the de first alphabet of our name.."JKX"..wahaha..my idea lehz..hope i can be so clever when taking math.. hmm..den andrew meet us at 8 plus..late again..argg..same as jk..1 late for 1 hr n another late for 30 min..nxt time meet them shd noe wad to do le..went to play pool le den head to cine to play cs..den off we went to kbox..i think ystd veri heng sia..saw my sec fren [sweehan n li hua],pri fren [cheryl,huimin and ching ching] and my e36E classmate..haha...all in different location lehz..after sing finish, when we abt to go hm tat time, we saw ppl vomit..haha..can imagine hw i look tat time when i vomit..haha..shd ask them to keep de liqour for nxt visit ma..dun 1 shot drink finish or else end up vomiting....haha...
tml got sch..haiz..damn boring...my holidays!!!!!!!plz come faster...veri tired liaoz...argg...streSSS!!!!!my MATH!!!!!!!!!!!!
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4:26 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
StreSS!!!
juz back hm after meeting 1 of my frenz at jurong entertainment centre...hmm..we went to hav our dinner at the nearby shop n den went to stroll ard..she bought a bag...ex manz..$60++..haha..rich manz..arg..thinking of $$..my boss haven giv mi my pay..need to feed on bread for this wk n nxt wk..haha..
tml is math paper 2 le n i am still blogging here..die liaoz la..no hope for paper 2 manz..reali no confidence i can pass..i noe it cfm much tougher n n i mean alot tougher den paper 1 which i hav not much confidence to score in..de most i can get is a just pass..argg..wun be enough to cover for paper 2...shit manz..need to wake up early in the morning to at least rmb de formulas..juz hope for de best ba...
this whole wk i been watching goong manz..veri veri veri nice show..kinda addicted to it liaoz..everyday aso watch..haha..de main actress was veri cute manz...her action , her way of speaking n dressing..haha...can find 1 ger of her type i dun mind die earlier..wahahah...got to wake up early tml..nitez..>.<
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7:09 AM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
English paper...
hmm..today's paper were manageable..but i think i mess up with the report writing..i dunno the format so i just anyhw came up with the reformat...n i wasn't able to finish the report aso..argg..i spend too mux time on the composition..i tink de composition was quite easy but dunno got went out of point anot...haha...
after paper went out with jk n ms..yup.. and unexpectedly, jk was de first the reach..wahhaah...can imagine he can reach on time...but too bad..i was late....is payback time where i always wait for him when i meet him...haha...ms reach ard 1 plus..we head to ajisen to hav our breakfast+lunch+dinner...haha...was veri full...jk order de clayfish, ms on vegetarian and i eat ton toro..haha...was nice manz..veri long nv eat le..ahah...den we went to cine kbox to sing...this time round we nv drunk..so no need to scare..haha...the waiter c us aso scare...went to find alvin to take the member card..haha...i tink he reali will retain le la...1 sem only c him a few time..haiz...wasted manz...ard 6 we went to BBTC to apply for car licence..n jk was rushing to take his basic theory..haha..he PASSED manz!!wasted..hahha...so hao lian manz...call almost all his relative n fren to inform them tat he passed..haha...mi n ms will hav our basic theory test on 19 dec...haha..hope can 1 shot pass all..hehe...
After everything was done, we went to lor 1 to watch movie.."THE CONVERNENT"...veri nice show...haha...the lead actor was dashing manz..got body, got looks...argg..hw i wish i had half of him...haha...i not gay hor..dun misunderstand..haha...tml got to go sch..argg...damn tired..okay...nitez.=)
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8:15 AM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Starting of 'O' level -->stressing period!!
yupx..juz back hm after the math paper 1... i tink the paper okay ba..still manage to sneak thru..gettting a pass shd be no prob ba..but i make alot of careless mistake when i was checking the paper..doesn't hav time to amend it..argg..paper 2 shd be much tougher...dunno can pass this time round anot..wake up 5 in de morning to do some revision before heading to the examination hall..was veri nervous sia..duno y lehz..i hav taken 3 time already still so nervous..shd be more calm ma..maybe this time round de pressure r more..cause i wasn't able to change course n de module chair say if i pass my o level math..i stand a high chance to get course transfer..god bless mi manz.. think abt it, reali so embarassing...take 3 time le still duno can pass anot..haiz..
this few days my gastric is acting up again..the pain is on-off..argg..sometime de pain reali r unbearable..haiz..i tink got to c de doc soon...my head sometime aso get veri gliddy..all my sickness is appearing at the most crucial peroid..shit manz..=(
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7:52 PM