Sunday, October 29, 2006
Life is BORED!! [Studying]
wasn't able to blog this for the past few days..lazy ba and nothing to blog abt..hmm...went studying with with a fren of mine... she aso not bad la..nv retake still company mi to study..den like she was watching mi study lidat..feel abit ps..haiz..dunno study so much got use anot...later still fail is like waste of effort.. math ar math ar..i duno when den can pass..everytime study le still fail de...argg..stress!!
went out with my boss ystd..watch soccer at the brewerkz where andrew tat time was drunk there..haha..de environment was great..all MAN UTd fans were there..haha..enjoy the match alot..man UTD thrash bolton 4-0..unexpectedly..n my favorite player score a hat trick in that match..-ROONEY- wahaha...yeah!! but too bad , lost my bet on liverpool n portsmouth..arg...andrew ate seafood pasta, i ate cod fish and my boss ate rib steak..all add to the bill of $150..ex sia..den i order stupid drink, "singapore sling"..shucks..sux manz..i thought was a nice cocktail but in the end force myself to drink finish..=(
Was thinking wan to pon those day tat doesn't have UT de nxt wk so i can stay at hm to study math..duno lehz..still thinking..i scare pon le i wake up is ard the time i release sch..haha...tml is JAVA..de stupid fac..arggg...need to wake up early..gotten slp soon....nitez!! >.<
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6:58 AM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Concept of "WAter" changed!!!
haha..was dead drunk ystd sia..thanx to andrew n jk..argg..de feeling of being reali drunk reali wasn't tat gd..i thought when u drunk, u tend to forget thing temporary but it was exactly the opposite..was feeling damn xin ku manz..the feeling of vomiting...argg...shucks!!reali maake mi detest liquor le..promise myself not to drink so much nxt time..scare of chivas [water] le..haha..dun wan to be another merlion in RP..haha...die le..i think thurs will be a veri difficult time for mi to pass..haha...coz that jk took alot of video of mi when i am drunk..i think sooner or later everyone will noe i merlion de..haha..wad comes ard reali goes ard..haha..tat time laugh him merlion,ystd merlion myself..when i wake up today..my head was damn gliddy n pain sia.. i tink the alcohol hav not gone down yet..still feeling unstable..eaten 2 panadol den gone to work..den tat stupid andrew come find mi..haha..i saw some video..i was look so pathetic sia..keep vomiting..i tink the last memory before i get reali drunk was when i was a toilet vomiting..after tat everything i forgotten le..i dun even rmb i vomit on the table and the sofa n aso break a glass..tats y my hand was bleeding..pity tat aunty sia..everytime we come she sure got work to do de..which is to clean up our vomit..haha...couldn't recap anything i do sia...argg...i tink when taking a cab hm tat time, i aso vomit on the cab..but luckily de cab driver have given mi a plastic bag if not i sure vomit on his cab de..argg.was feeling so ps lorz..nxt time i dun wan drink le la...ystd was feel damn moody man..actually aso not ystd ba..i tink since sat ba..haiz.duno la..hate to tink or veri scare to tink..juz let it be wad it is nw...
nw i am looking at a bunch of math notes from shu xianz..haiz..dun even understand a thing lorz...so stress up manz..i dun even noe hw to apply lorz..living at the age of 20 still take o lvl..damn it..too bad i was born stupid..juz hope de paper will pass quickly ba..i giving up le...=(
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8:38 AM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
There's no fairness in this world!!!
somtimes de thing that u giv out doesn't reali will return it back to u..thats wad i realise lately..y muz i be the only 1 who suffer and the 1 who always giving in..but den the end result, it's not wad i expected..i reali sick n tired le..i tink for the past few yrs..i be living for others and not for myself..i care for hw ppl think n hw they feel but they doesn't care a wink of mi ..i would not wan to be a shadow of other ppl and i promise to step out of tat and live for myself..
living in this world for someone is worth it when she aso live for u too..but tat doesn't apply to mi..sometimes being a gd guy in the eyes of other ppl can make u reali tired...n tats when u doesn't even get close for her to care abt u..
i always change myself for someone but when does the someone ever changes herself for mi..those who care abt mi shd care for mi to wad i am nw..
I HATE THIS DAMN WORLD!!!
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2:05 AM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
To be able to let go means to be able to give up!!!!
i hope i be able to..LAter need to study for OS UT..hope be able to obtain gd grade to show those who despise me tat they r wrong..i will prove to them tat it only matter i wan to study anot n not i am stupid..FYP i will excel u by a lots ..juz watch out... there's no true fren in my world, onli true fren will come when u need them most and i hav not reali encounter any..juz hope my memory would slowly fade away..
apart = Mi , A part = none!!!!
LEaf departure becoz of wind pursuit or trees nv ask it to stay??
Love started with a smile grows with kiss but ended in tears....
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7:57 AM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i dunno hw long i cant take in sarcastism and those remarks..sometime i juz feel like venting all my anger but i noe it wasn't de rite way..i noe i am not tat clever nor hardworking..juz feel like giving up everything..i reali detest my whole life..i doesn't seem to do anything tat much superior den the others..sports i am not de strongest, studies obviously no..since i cant excel in everything i do, wad for force myself..i am like a doom failure..studies, love life, frenz..haiz..all so mess up..i dunno hw long i can tolerate..maybe 1 day i cant take it anymore, i juz reali forsake everything..dun care abt any other things or feeling..worse still i hav to put on a brave front and act like nothing hav happen..acting like a joker..but de real mi seem to be hidden deep inside mi..i am running away from reality..i am reali afraid to face it again!!
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8:19 AM
Monday, October 16, 2006
tolerance level reaches limit!!
morning quarrel with jk over a phone call coz i call him 4 times n he nv listen..when i saw him tat time , he was crossing the road with his frenz..damn piss off..he say he told ms le but in fact ms nv told mi yet he put words in my mouth say he got tell mi.."haha"..i reali hate the sch,faci,frenz and everything ard mi..everyone is like turning the tables over mi..scram off my life manz..tat ms still sarcastic say those words not meant to your ears..he say u wan to work philip den u ask kim fong urself..who de heck care abt working in philip..pay high so wad..u tink i need philip to support mi.. i think u r damn F***ing wrong..i no need and dun intend to join even if u wan mi..u say i am poor in java or in my all the other module...but y u still take resources from mi..contridicting urself..i prove u all wrong by excelling in my modules..wan to despise mi..den suit u..
kind msg to those who like to talk big infront of mi..dun tink u r beta den mi juz by judging hw well u do in tat module..plz..u r not tat strong!!
I HATE WEARING A MASK TO SCH EVERYDAY!!!I WAN TO BE MY TRUE SELF..WHY I THIS WORLD DOESN'T SEEM TO HAVE ANYONE WHO NOES MI???
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9:24 AM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
sunday = no family day!!
xianz..i wake up everyone in de hse gone le..haiz..veri dead sia..anyway dunno wan to cut my hair anot n aso dye my hair to a darker colour..i hate my hair colour sia..so gold..like ah beng like tat...haha..dunno ba..later c hw..haha...thought of playing bb de but de haze n de weather giv mi a 2nd thought..haha..going off to cut my grandma hse soon..den decide whether wan to cut anot..haha...
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12:17 AM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
ChiVAs= WAter?? haha!!
yupx..went drinking with jk n andrew ystd..juz reach hm not long ago n taken a bath to freshen mi up..haha.. spend some time studying my math..juz trying to catch up with the others but i tink reali prove so hard..haiz..dunno..giving up everything soon..tat jk was late again ystd..lucky i didn't leave hse earlier too coz i noe his pattern to well..but still end up waiting for him..haiz..meet him at cine le den walk down to ps to find andrew..hmm slack for awhile n hav some great chat with jk while waiting for andrew to release from work..saw 1 shirt at world of sports..i going to get it today..hhaa..after meeting him le den we head off to cine to kbox..hmm..order a chivas which cost $178..argg..spend $100 on de drink alone..shit man..i wan to save $$ de lehz..haha..tat counter staff actually tell us tat we can sing till 2am but normaly we would sing tilll 6am de..haha..den we argue le den rightfully get back our 4 hrs.haha...thought was de chivas was to little..everyone start grumbling..haha..den when i drink ard 5 to 6 glass of chivas le..den was getting abit drunk le and mi aso take a puff of cigrettes.. find wasn't so relief stress as it may seems..haha...den de stupid jk say drinking chivas was like drink water..haha..i tink he make a big mistake by saying tat..haha...after i went toilet with andrew and was telling him tat i going to drunk le with him aso in de same state as mi..as we went back..find tat jk was vomiting le and he still say wan to open another bottle..hhaa...we laugh sia..was like a small kid tell us tat he vomit..muz reali c his expression..tat idiot andrew took video to add to his collection of drunkard..wahhaha..after vomit le den he start to slp there le like wad GQ do when he is in KTV..haha.. i admit i was a little 'tired=drunk' but was sober after a period of time..keep go toilet to wash my face to keep myself sober coz i scare andrew cannot handle jk alone..but to our relief, he wake up ard 5 den start sing song le..first time c him drunk sia..haha..after tat company jk go take bus n andrew n mi went to hav breakfast n went hm after tat..
i thought can get drunk to forget everything but still sober after drinking..argg.i tink drinking again tonitez..i waking up in the noon to play bb..on course to slim down n get tanned..i hate my looks... -on de verge of breaking down-
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4:34 PM
Friday, October 13, 2006
Soccer in sch!!
Shit!!reach sch at 8.38 today...argg.. was late for 3min was downgraded...the fac reali law by law wan lehz..3 min allowance aso cannot giv..feel like slapping her face..this type of fac horz, cannot psycho wan sia..not like ystd de fac..haha..psycho her abit den she mark mi present le..today de fac so wierd...the attitude like so different lorz..normally she would say "kenny plz read n do the class out" but today she say in a gentle way ;"kenny, you noe hw to do"..make my hair stand sia..but at least beta ba..not so stress..i got learn something aso..if she try to accomodate with us, i think our life n her life would be much easier to pass ba..but wad cause her changes..izzit she scare she kana scold by module chair or juz wan to change herself???
during the 2nd break out, went causeway with desmond,kennyL,jing jie to causeway to hav some drink den went back sch to kick soccer..haha..was nice but need to leave after 1 match coz already 155 le..haha..lucky manage to reach class in time if not downgrade again..haha...
after sch company jk to vivo city to meet him fren lorz..den went back hm after tat..tired!!
everyone start to study abt their 'O' lvl math le..mi still haven even started..die le..haiz..fail den let it fail ba..study le aso fail,nv study aso fail..like so waste time like tat..some even told mi they aiming for an A's..haiz..
saw poh choo ystd at carrefour..haha..become more n more short..haha..i thought who come dashing to mi sia...reali dunno is her..until she call my name..haha..have a short chat with her..she ask mi y so long le still nv heard u have gf de...i dunno hw to ans her..haiz..maybe i was to ugly or char sux..tats wad i feel abt myself..saw her wrist sia..got lots of cuts..i ask her izzit u go cut de..she told mi is fall down de..i dun belief lorz..obviously is cut using pen knife de..she become more n more stranger to mi le..dun noe her tat well le..i think is all RS RS RS again..hiaz..i reali think i giving up le..i aso duno y i feel this way...maybe i hav no confidence of myself..=(
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8:09 AM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Wed outing!!
meet xy,jk,ms they all today..tat 2 guy was so late lorz...meet them 2,they come at 3..nxt time tell them meet 2 hr in advance...went to Vivo city again..hhaa..actually not many thing to shop la..maybe the shop haven fully opened ba..den we went to Breeks to hav our 2nd lunch..haha..den xy go hm while jk n mi wander ard,chilling out drinking some beer..shall stop nw..feeling abit dizzy...hhaa..maybe de effect of the beer i drank juz nw..hhaha...nitez!!
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9:17 AM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Sick n tireD!!
haiz...today feeling damn sleepy manz...doze off alot of time in class..duno y sia..haiz..streSS!!today lesson was quite fun ba..de derrick tan duno eat wad medicine sia..today so humourous sia..keep telling jokes..but he is slowing changing hw i look at him..improving...haha...at least not like SWATI..c her i aso xianz..attending her lesson can reali kill mi..i think the onli things not gd abt derrick lesson is he end too late le la..430 den releaase..i almost half dead le..lucky i secure my B's le..hhaa.heng ar...
-World full of emptiness-
~feeling everything have left mi, Left alone~
LOnely,COnfused
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9:04 AM
Monday, October 09, 2006
ConfuSed!!!
today lesson was quite hard to gone by because our main programmer were absent from sch..haha..so our grp hav to struggle without him...lucky KL manage to take over his job if not our grp sure dead..haha...after lesson, we went to play Basketball..first outing of E25G..surprise tat so many ppl in our class play bb..haha..at least got something in common...haha..argg..veri long nv play le..my shooting sux manz..reali need to regain back the touch..btw i hate those act pro in certain sports de..n i hate ppl who try to act as if they were veri relax when playing game..it is not showing respect to the opponent...when i regain back my touch, i will challenge u 1-on-1..wait n c..
after bb, went to meet xy,ms and jk at w4..they wan to stunt mi, lucky i was walking the path where they were sitting..haha..too bad..actually plan to watch de 645 show at de new vivo city GV but were sold out real fast..n there were so many ppl there lor..becoz if this, kana condemn by the 3 of them all the way to tiong to catch our 740 show..haha..but de vivo city reali veri big n hav many shop sia..hhaa..n the top level was veri romantic sia..resemblance the sky garden in suntec..veri gd place for couple...senery was nice..can c lots of loving couple tan qing suo ai..haiz..dunno when will be turn..i will sure bring someone i like there wan..but guess becoming more n more like a dream le..we bought de ticket at tiong for de 740 show..den like we left ard 20 min ba..we were so hingry tat we eat our dinner at the kopitiam there..haha..we eat veri fast lorz..esp de jk..hahaa..but reali la..got eat like nv eat like tat..de noodle were given so little lor..hhaa..bought swt corn n lemon tea in..argg..de casshier reali mi mi embarrass sia..haha..which corn..POP corn or SWT corn.den the stupid piggy at there keep saying..argg..nxt time dun dare go tiong watch movie le..haha..watch ROB-B-Hood..was a damn nice show lor..veri funnny...de mix blood baby was veri cute sia..wish my baby aso like tat...haha..veri worth it watching this show..hhaa...watch until 10 den each gone hm le lor..hmm..feel abit guilty sia..hhaa...i reach hm so early..haha..n de most suay wan would by xy..de stupid jk call mi to scold mi..haha..k la..nxt time u all decide..
hmm..my hrt was like so confused nw..hav so many thing to say but cant say out..maybe juz keep inside ba..say out le hav to face many consequences...maybe best is to remain wad it is nw...haiz..duno ar...veri luan..i nw aso where my hrt goes..i reali veri confused sia...argg..if possible, let mi forget my memories ba..haiz..
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8:24 AM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Out sHopping with PN..
yupx..went shopping the same gang lorz..GQ,XY n jk..haha...jk stunt sia..meet 3 cum at 5..wa lao..lucky i aso late if not reali i will be damn fed up...i hate to wait for ppl..and jk hor...same pattern de..always last min wan..n his mother like choose the time so exact de..when he going to be late, he sure say he go out dinner with his mother..haha..same excuses cannot be used more den once..but de thing tat change my mood is de FArizah..wa lao..damn fed up manz if i noe i dun go carrefour find andrew le....even i nv work aso kana scolding from her..she say she giv mi de sales report le but in fact tat time i get de sales report from her, she scolded mi..hw fast she can change her line ar...i hate her to de core.wanna slap her liaoz...she can grp along with the shit swati liaoz..ass manz..damn irritating..she wan to mix personal emotion with work rite, i acn aso..argg...beta stop tok abt it..if not my temper come up liaoz..de GQ today stunt sia..say wanna save $$..haha..everything he eat seem so budget at first..haha..but in de end still spend quite alot...he stunt de la..where got last min got ppl say wan to save $$ de..haha..becoz of him, we went to eat at de foodcourt instead of pizza...he say more cheaper..but hmm.. later we went to BEN n JERRY to eat ice cream..haha..in de end still spend 12.5 on de ice-cream itself..hhaa..jk rich sia..spend 500+ on 1 handphone n 1 adidas jacket..haha..he as an example can show hw 87 n 86 de guy hw fast they spend their $$ le... den we went to HMV to c whether got nice de t-shirt ma..but in de end didn't c any..haha..but we did saw TAMMY..ahah..oppo de 77th street..the guy working there sure gossip de...de xy stunt sia..i can assure tammy saw lorz..so PS..haha.. we den head to cine to hav some drink coz de ice-cream we eat reali make mi veri thirsty..hmm..chit chat for awhile till 10 den we head hm le..de GQ giv mi stunt until nothing to say...aha..but he today reali stunt alot..like a beast being unleash..hhaa..muz find de controller[u noe who i am toking abt] to control him when he came out with us...haha..
okay..tml is santosa de lesson...haha..can slack abit..haha..n basketball tml...nitez..
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8:20 AM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
WKend shucks!!
argg..spend my whole sat afternoon at hm doing nothing..reali feel veri wasted sia..thought of going out de but most of my fren either working or goign out with gf..haiz...so xin fu lorz..haha..dunno when will be my turn..but guess hav to wait a long time ba..coz i nw aso dunno where my hrt go..haiz..play basketball for awhile n de haze was like so blur lorz..argg..reach ph150 sia...hope i can faster get sick ba..when sick, den no need to tink so much le..
reali muz force myself to do more sports..i wan to becum slimmer n tanner..haha..coz i tink i reali look veri ugly..haiz...
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10:22 AM
Friday, October 06, 2006
Stupid fac again!!!!
argg..damn fed up with the fac today..damn sarcastic manz..she look at mi n say if you wan to learn de memorise if not be my GUEST!!!wa lao..feel like throwing the chair at her..i drag myself to sch today n still need to tolerate her shit attitude..reach sch at 845 n when i cum in, she straight say erm new GROUND RULES again..shit her..she say 835 is de latest if not downgrade..she still say giv 5 min allowance rather den starting at 830..sound like she so gd like tat..all is crap de..wolf in a sheep skin...5 min can make alot of difference mehz...try asking her to stay tiong bahru den take MRT to woodland lor..c she can wake up so early anot..the most irritation part is when i present tat time, i already explain the concept liaoz n yet she ask wad is this wad is tat..she nv listen to my presentation lor..she nv show mi respect , i aso do de same liaoz...somemore she end de lesson at 405..wa lao..hw to study for ut..den de best is she always push de blame to others..she say its ur fault tat we end so late coz u all keep dragging de time..bullshit..1 grp she spend 30min..hw to finish..somemore got ut..tell her get out of our class la...i sure condemn her for de rest of de 13 wk..worst fac i ever faced in RP..
after sch, went to work..haiz..c so many couples aso xianz..all celebrating mooncake festival yet i am working..20 yrs de festival i spend alone le..haiz..lonely manz..i dread valentine day..i going to lock myself up so i no need to c loving couple ard mi..
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9:30 AM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
BAd day!!
having a veri bad temper today..reach work early coz nothing to do at hm..den reach there start doing stock,help james to set up de philips counter..argg...was damn tiring..den de stupid farizah come nag here nag there..wa...reali cannot stand le..damn fed up..den dunno y i attitude to james sia...he ask mi got pantry eat den i say nvm..i go eat alone..den he call mi i nv pick up de call..i think anger rush to my head le la..but not long after, we start talkng again le..haha..lucky he was not those petty type..i noe i was a fault ba..even if quarrel i will apologise first..lucky everything went on fine..haha..
hmm..UT start on fri..arggg..shit man..this module UT is de worst de lorz..i nv listen de coz de fac sux to the core manz..i hate her..i think i going to study tml..so i acn prove to her i can pass or even score without her teaching..if she carry on teaching us, i not sure hw long i can stand..argg...god bless mi!!haha..
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9:00 AM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
VS 4 time!!! haha
today at sch was veri suay sia..Our class power supply was cut off..n ONLI our class is affected..the other class still can surf net all tat..haha..den the fac today dunnno go hw many time toilet sia..muz be something wrong with his bladder...lolx..but today grp was quite fun la..alot of interaction unlike my previous 3 module..all was like doing own thing de..xianz..stil miz those time in E36E la..haha..so relax..stress free...de fac so gd unlike this fac..oout of 4 module, all 4 sux to the core manz..onli 1 still can pass by..argg..got 14 problem more..hw to pass sia..wondering..haha..dunno when can hoilday..still far ahead ar...but can c de current class clicking ba..hope slowlyy can improve ba instead of treat each other like stranger like tat..
after sch, went to work..during break time, james,jims,andrew n mi went to play Virtual striker-ver 2006..haha..each buy his own IC card n play..i chose england n follow by james-argentina,jim-italy n andrew-brazil..haha..i am de stongest manz..haha..tml still got work..argg.got to wake up early..going to bed soon..nitez..
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9:31 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
BOring , BOred!!!!argggg!!!
wake up ard 3 plus in de noon..den went out to run awhile den back hm watch de VCD i rent ystd..hmm.."hw to lose a Guy in 10 days" were a veri nice show..veri swt..esp kate hudson..so pretty..haha..de story was veri romantic..muz watch movie manz..find this CD veri long le,finally rent it to watch..haha...this show was abt a guy n a ger hav a bet to hook each other up n make each other luv each other in 10 days..but at first, they took ut as a bet but in de end,they veri fall for each other..haha...nice show!!
okay..off to my grandma hse to watch soccer le..Man Utd vs Newcastle..haha..hope man utd win..rooney ,saha n ronaldo...haha...=)
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6:33 AM
