Monday, September 25, 2006
FatE playing praNk oN mE!!
haiz..bored, feeling wierd..juz feeling veri tired n confused abt my own feeling..scare to tink n scare to carry hope..i dunno ba..maybe i too sensitive or wad..
saw 'her' today at 'CREATIVE' store at ps today while i was shopping with ms n xy..didn't notice "her" until xy told mi..saw "her" den my feeling like feeling so wierd..my hrt tell mi was veri happy to c her but aso feeling veri sad to c her..Because she already hav a bf, i juz wish to forget her so i can carry on with my life..but i hav already seen her twice after we hav contact in july..is tat wad call fate playing prank on mi..during tat 3 yrs, i not even seen "her" once..was lucky not seeing "her" with her bf if not i sure feel damn f*** up wan..but on the other hand, was aso happy tat she found a shoulder to lean on esp this period when she needed most n wad i was not able to giv her..but i came to realise tat it is easier said den done when i say i gonna forget her coz i wun be able to do so..hmm..juz trying to bluff myself day by day in order to make myeslf stronger..haiz..i reali dunno wad to do??? am i a pure failure in handling RS??i doubt i be able to engage in a new rs coz i hav no confidence to do so....but seeing her, she reali giv mi a type of feeling tat i dun get from others gers..haiz..dunno la..reali dun dare to face reality..
AM i tat bad or i juz pure failure?haiz...
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
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