Would [Y]ou be there to kiss my pain away?

Saturday, September 30, 2006

BOring SaT!!!

argg..today wake up at 915..so early lorz..becoz of de james say wan to take pay lorz..but in de end, i overslept..haha..wake up at 930..was veri tiring n somemore sat sia..haha..de earliest sat i wake up de...met xy at 1040 at orchard mrt...tat stupid james late, reach abt 11 plus..den we juz in time to take de cheaque to take cash..waahah..after taking de $$,we went to far east to hav our lunch at the indonesia restauarant..hmm..de curry chicken was veri nice...after tat james went to work n we meet gq.. we walk ard den drop at ps while xy go find her bf, mi n gq go find james they all..we hav drinks at the hotdog mei there..argg..was so pai seh lorz..tat james,gq,xy make mi so embarrass lorz..wa lao..nxt time dun dare to walk pass there le..haha..we watch 'JOhn tucker muz die'..was veri funny n nice show..haha..de john tucker was veri skilled sia..haha..any ger he wan sure can get de..muz learn from him..hhaa..but de ending not wad i expected la..i expect the kate n tucker together but in de end both go seperate way..aha..after de show, gq go work n xy n mi go walk walk lorz..walk until 7 den she go find her bf n mi wander ard den go hm le..haha...so boring...first time so early go hm on sat...wasted my wkend..nxt wk muz wisely spend my wkend..

As for ystd,i quarrel with de fac sia..keep picking on mi..cannot tahan le..from morning i cum sch keep asking mi till release sch sia..i mail her a personal comment saying tat if she not happy with mi, can come directly to mi no need to downgrade mi..dunnno if i was right to do tat but was veri fed up ystd..

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8:29 AM

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Indian Rapping [faci on thurs]

argg..cannot stand today de faci..she was so noisy n nagging lorz..wa lao..keep tok tok tok tok n tok until 4 sia..half way of de presentation, i fall asleep sia...but her voice reali veri irritating sia..wan to kill her liaoz..

after sch den go work as usual lorz..i reach there den help them to shift the counter to the middle of the sales floor..argg..so many dust was flying ard..but after shifting, was much more cleaner ba..hope beta sales..haha..den my boss came to find mi n we eat our dinner at ajisen..hmmm..veri long nv eat ajisen le.. came out with new menu n new dishes..i try de clayfish ramen n taste quite okay..haha..n i aso order white fish..was veri nice...nxt time eat again..haha..

asking myeslf this ques..is it possible to regain wad i lost during the past 3 yrs..hmm..haiz..dunno lehz...this few days reali feeling something wrong..like something is missing or wad..den hav those lonely type of feeling..haiz..dunno la...my hrt veri complicated lehz..den my mind aso haiz..dunno la..veri fan!!!

tml is de stupid fac again..haiz..hate de fac sia..so many ground rules..like army sia..late 5 min aso cannot..guess hav to slp early..dun wan to get downgrade..=)

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7:47 AM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

StoCk take [Carrefour]

yupx..was stock take ystd..didnt slp for de whole of 24 hr plus..until when i reach hm, de sky hav turn bright again..haha..was quite tiring la...coz morning i hav sch n then after sch i went straight to work+stock take till de nxt morning..argg..went there like half dead liaoz..my eyes was closing n keep yawning..my sch end ard 4 den i went to sintel beside the party world to find james they all..haha..hear them sing reali cute sia..haha..they sing those song that i nv even have heard b4..haha..the pic was so old lor..haha...worst is ah bee liao..she sing those song can reali classified as VERI oldies liaoz..haha..de mtv was so gu tai..haha..braun james sing reali well ar..i heard him sing i noe he is a veri gd singer le..he can imitate jay until like de reali jay singing sia..de 'feng' was so diff to sing lor yet he can sing so well..haha...hope i can sing as well as him too..but belief mi, if u hav heard him sing, u would think he is gd enough to take part in any competiton..haha..as for james, his andy lau song liaoz lorz..cannot stand him sia..hhaa..sing aso act cute..argg..wan to slp le den he wake mi up..annie sing aso not bad la..after singing, we went to hav our dinner at meridien n pool before heading off to work..when playing pool tat time, duno wad happen sia..hit wad ball,wad ball go in..hhaa..but luck doesn't last long, i lost to annie coz i hit de black ball in after 2 shot..haha..stock take wasn't as tough as wad i tink la..haha..actually veri slackk..de welfare was veri gd..keep giving us food...i was team up with siva..haha..n we crap all de way..de time pass veri fast la..we even hav time to play with the osim massage equipment..haha..

as for today,wake up ard 4 n went to work..wanted to take sales report from her de but she went hm early..argg..there's goes my commission..not much customer today..another boring day..

have kind of feeling tat i reali sick of my life le..my routine was so bored n continuously getting worse n worse..ii dunno i can stand for hw long..tml sch again..haiz...bored..sicked of sch n everything..nothing interest mi le..haiz...

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10:24 AM

Monday, September 25, 2006

FatE playing praNk oN mE!!

haiz..bored, feeling wierd..juz feeling veri tired n confused abt my own feeling..scare to tink n scare to carry hope..i dunno ba..maybe i too sensitive or wad..

saw 'her' today at 'CREATIVE' store at ps today while i was shopping with ms n xy..didn't notice "her" until xy told mi..saw "her" den my feeling like feeling so wierd..my hrt tell mi was veri happy to c her but aso feeling veri sad to c her..Because she already hav a bf, i juz wish to forget her so i can carry on with my life..but i hav already seen her twice after we hav contact in july..is tat wad call fate playing prank on mi..during tat 3 yrs, i not even seen "her" once..was lucky not seeing "her" with her bf if not i sure feel damn f*** up wan..but on the other hand, was aso happy tat she found a shoulder to lean on esp this period when she needed most n wad i was not able to giv her..but i came to realise tat it is easier said den done when i say i gonna forget her coz i wun be able to do so..hmm..juz trying to bluff myself day by day in order to make myeslf stronger..haiz..i reali dunno wad to do??? am i a pure failure in handling RS??i doubt i be able to engage in a new rs coz i hav no confidence to do so....but seeing her, she reali giv mi a type of feeling tat i dun get from others gers..haiz..dunno la..reali dun dare to face reality..

AM i tat bad or i juz pure failure?haiz...

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8:22 AM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

8 yrs frenz bday!![Andrew]wahahah!!

hmm..juz wake up not long ago...argg...ystd was quite drunk sia...a few cup of chivas n my head is spinning le..hhaa...not enough slp???but andrew was lucky la, nto enough chivas to make him drunk..wasted sia..short of a part 2 alvin esp..wahaha..yupx..ystd was andrew BELAted bday..we celebrated at cine KBOX..haha..we meet ard 930 at there n b4 meeting them,ms n mi went to buy present from andrew...de jersey cost $165 sia..so ex..dreaming of buying 1 for myself but was to ex le..cant bear to buy so ex shirt..haha..hmm..i tink when i have more pay nxt mth den may tink consider buying MAN UTD-rooney jersey..haha....

jk went to de same hair salon as alvin sia..de hairstyle like so similarly UGLY...wahaha..2 of them act punk sia..u giv mi $100 i aso dun dare to cut sia..haha..den ms,mi,jk,andrew meet up with shannon n yu yuan...yu yuan they all bought a cake..haha..tats save our $$ of gettingh him a cake aso..coz ystd expenses was alot..jersey,liquor,kbox..i tink got $150 ba..argg.there goes my 1 wk pay..haha..but nvm la..happy can le..yu yuan stunt sia..always wan to dig my words ar...keep linking mi n her..argg..haha..i tink got someone backstab mi sia..haha..ms,andrew n alvin..these 3 main suspect..if i find anyone of u stunt ar..haha..i gonna kill u..we order a bottle of chivas..intention was to make andrew drunk, but in de end ms drunk first...haha...told him drink coke liaoz..he insist of making andrew drunk coz andrew say he was a bad drinker...ahah...took seom grp photo..when i take pic from xy le den upload ba...

feeeling veri vexed nwadays sia..was like arggg..de feeling was not gd...dunno y lehz..de more i tink de more i feel fed up..haiz..dunno ba..i tink my life was full of lies n unhappiness..haiz..dunno hw..dun dare to tink..but was happy for gq la..can sense tat they 2 r veri loving n happy together..wish them happiness..=)

another ques i ask myself..does i like gers tat r more mature or more childish???i aso dunno..

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3:52 AM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

First Day of sch!![BOred!!]

HAiz..sch reopen today..n was damn tired to go sch..i wake up real late n was late for class..acutally i dread to go sch..i dun like de first day of sch where u hav to AGAIN readapt to a new environment n frenz..the atmostphere is so er....haiz..xianz manz..de fac aso 1 kind..like those sort of bias type de..den during presentation, it was like war lorz..indian vs myanmar vs singapore..shoot ques until like wan each other to get downgrade like tat..de competition was high ar..so different from e36e..stange laa..e36e onli becum veri bond when we r separated..haha..we today eat together as a class during de 2nd break..everyone in the class was trying to impress like tat...make until de atmosphere so tense..den the fac indian essence n joke was a minus minus factor...although it is de first day, i still hav to say this "i HATE de class"

hmm..as for ystd, went to meet up with de e36e guys for buffet again..this time we went for seoul garden..haha..eaten a free lunch cozz i was late so de counter staff forget to collect de $$ from mi..haha..save $13..haha..den mi , ah toh n tristan went to bugis to buy shirt..haha..we each bought a thing each..mi n ah toh bought a t-shirt n tristan bought a 3/4 pants.. saw xy along de bugis street..haha..so qiao..we chat at de mos burger for abt 1 1/2 hr..talking abt alot of things la..haha..like luv la,sch life la n so on..found out that we catch up quite abit tat we didn't do when we r in de same class..too bad ba gey ,xin hua, gh was not with us..ah toh was caught by those prudential stuff advisor..haha..i was a early victim so i was being free by them..haha..

hmm..i learn tat we shd learn to treasure de one u luv while u can before it is too late..i was one example..i dun wish other follow my route..haiz..nw i hav to land until this state..quite sad..seeing those couple juz make mi more jealous n envy...not as fortuante as them..izzit so easy to let go someone for gers???does gers go for guys who dun care as much for them de so they will treasure them more??so many ques..haiz..i reali cant get it..there's reali no fairness in this world i tink..

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7:37 AM

Monday, September 18, 2006

Can anyone be trusted?? -LOst-

hmm...LIes LIes n Lies..those words sound veri tough on mi...can anyone be trusted including ur buddy or family....hmmm..i doubt so..guess only de one tat can be trusted is ur ownself...u wun cheat urself i guess...but i cheated myself for 3yrs..n i guess is de time to let go..

starting afresh is tough but i will try..

Kenny to zutto isshoni itai-->waiting for someone to say this to mi...i will find u soon..haha..

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9:28 AM

Sunday, September 17, 2006

ExhAusTed!!

hmm..were not able to blog this few days coz my desktop were spoil..argg..living without com were kinda of tough...were not able to check soccer updates,news have reali make mi unbearable..haha..though i am not gd in soccer, but i am veri enthu towards soccers news...haha...yupx...keep a update of wad happen starting from friday..

Friday
hmm..went to kick soccer at ard kallang there at ard 11 at nitez with jk n his frenz..haha....we play in those cage soccer court..it was fun manz..score 1 goal..haha...veri tough to play lorz coz i nv play in those grass patch b4..was damn slippery lorz..ahha..den those sand will go inside ur shoe when playing time..haha..but nvm..was veri fun n a aso a good experience for mi..next fri going to play again....hope to score more goals..after the game, mi n andrew went to mac to eat something aso to slack awhile coz de soccer game reali drain up all our energy..not long after, jk cum along, n we sit there tok crap till ard 2 plus in de morning ba...haha...finally noe jk secret le...he dun dare to tell mi his ex gf name n i manage to find out thru is buddy,erwin..waah..everytime backstab ppl, nw is ur turn le ba..JENNIFER..haha..his face turn sia...so afraid of mi...first time..when sch reopen i gonna disturb him..haha..

Saturday
thought of watching 'JOHN TUCKER MUZ DIE' de but in de end cant get any ticket coz was sold out.argg...both cine n new cathay..went to crap with teck n aso get a free drink from his 711..wahaha..we den walk down to find andrew..we eat our dinner at de KOPITIAM nearby n off we went to find alvin..haha..walk 40 min from ps to lucky plaza juz to catch a glimse of him n we were chase out..haha..andrew say we cum lucky plaza to buy de 711 drinks nia..haha...veri waste our time lorz...haha..den off we went hm..=)

when i going to meet xy that time, saw 'her'...hmm...was kinda of feeling wierd..those feeling cum to me again..haiz...but forget it, guess i onli can look her from afar..looking her from afar is good enough for mi le...erm..if u were seeing this blog msg..i wishes u all de best for ur prelim n 'A' level..hope u can go to ur desire U..jia you..=)

Sunday
wake up ard 3..i den when to visit my grandma hse...veri long nv go there le..den went down to ps to find andrew after tat..bought a 'ADIDAS' jacket n a "flesh imp" t-shirt..argg...juz take pay n i spend $100"+ le.. i wan to save up for a car licence n aso a car...wish to control my spending if not i can onli afford taking bus nia..haha..

erm..xy..if u were seeing my blog...dun tink too much le..rmb still got us as frenz so anything can juz contact or tell us..dun keep in de bottom of ur hrt.. i tink we r more be happy to lend u a shoulder if need so stay happy ar...muz go back to ur own self...hope to c a happier u when sch reopen..take care....=)

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10:59 AM

Thursday, September 14, 2006

sEnTosA OutinG [PN0204]

hmm..went sentosa with de same bunch of frenz [PN-jk,kiat,xy,faqih,couple] n some of GQ frenz..haha..hmm..rush down to harbourfront after doctor checkup..haha..finally de doctor have discharge mi le..he say my hand recover le..but u noe something,he juz say u r discharge le den end de consultation le..damn it manz..for a few words, i hav to fork up $21..argg...meet them ard 1 actually but in de end delay till 3 den reach sentosa..haha..reach there already on de verge of raining le..no more sunlight..damp my intention of going there for suntan..arggg....when walking to palawan beach,we saw de volleyball which r much cheaper[$18] than de one we bought [$29]..haha....everyone start grumbling..haha..mi n kiat push piggy down to de sea..haha...as wad jk say, de sea level reali lower le..haha..thanx to her..den we went across de beach to take pic n aso play some soccer n volleyball there...den ard 7 plus de rest head hm where faqih,mi,kiat n jk go for dinner..reach hm ard 9 plus..juz nice for de last esp for 'JIN SAN SOON'..haha..

veri tired today coz wake up too early le..argg...nxt wk thurs sch reopen le..xianz...so fast..wish can extend manz..dun wish to go sch..haiz..faster graduate..juz feeling sick to go sch....

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8:30 AM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

RefLEctIon

i was like walking in de Empty street on de boulevard of broken dreamz! everything i dream of or de things i wanted seems to drift further n further from mi...'Lonely" is de word to describe hw i feel..envy those couple where they happily share enjoy each company...sad to say,nv ever hav experience it before..sometimes fear juz fill my mind..scare to lose de one i like..sometime where u grow sick of hiding ur feeling, u kinda will feel veri negatively...haiz....loving someone u like can be happy provided de other party respond de same..too bad, i haven find mine yet..=(

these few day have been de same thing lorz...working n working..after de wkend carnival sales den went back to work in carrefour de nxt day...den after work, go back hm n slack till 4 plus in de morning den slp..today de xy veri stunt lorz..make mi embarrass lorz...keep dragging mi to de hotdog counter there..argg...i think she kinda noe le la..when going hm de time,she look at mi den was like so pai seh lorz...dun dare to look at her den walk behind james n JH...argg...tink muz walk 1 big rd to de toilet again le la...argggg...

been watching de "JIN SANSOON" n "DEVIL BESIDE U"..hmm..find these two drama veri nice..haha..de 'JIN SANSOON' was kinda funny..but de luv story was there..touching n funny..hope can find gers like sansoon character those type..esp at de start where she like de guy[zhen xian] wher de guy juz ignore her..can understand hw she feel coz i kinda feel like her...

as for de 'DEVIL BESIDE U', aso nice show ar..but haven watch finish..haha..but aso can c de flow..hmm..ou xiang ju is like tat de la..ard de same..haha..when i c finish de update again..

going to my grandma hse to watch de match between 'MAN UTD VS CELTIC' le..haven slp much these day..need to catch up some slp if not sch reopen le wan to slp aso cannot..

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8:12 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Memorable but tIreD experIence..

end of de carnival sales le..yeah..haha..finally manz..today was veri tiring lorz...argg..my leg cramp until like wan to break liaoz..keep squad n stand until my thigh muscle cramp..my lower part of body was so heavy becoz of de water absorb when washing de blender n de rain..my shoe were soaking with water until my leg being so wrinkle le..but today de auntie treat us veri gd..ystd we r de one who ask her to blend de smoothie for us but today, they keep flooding us with de smoothie...haha..de treatment was so hostile lorz...haha..de rice cooker side sure envy us but we envy them too coz they r free loader=brokeback mountain[gAYS] tat aso take de same pay as us..they can slack there talking,playing while de 3 of us hav to slog like hell there..but nvm la..was fun, coz we keep playing with de water..de time pass quite quickly today..haha..no more 1045 ar...hhaa...but today reali tired ar..like not enough slp n keep standing n squating hav make my leg reali cramp..arggg...i realise that this is de onli job which de $$ i earn included all my sweat put in..hhaa..

after work,jk,gq,xy,cel,jh,james,ms n mi went to pasta mania to eat..spend quite a long time there chatting..i was smsing to my frenz when they tok coz i was too tired to open my mouth to tok to them le...at least someone out there still care wad happening ard mi...i feel lonely... or envy when saw couple have each companionship..have someone to tok to when u're lonely..haiz...but nvm la...juz keep myself occupy so i wun think of such stuff anymore...

hoping to watch 'Love wreck'..but everyone seems to say this movie was boring..hmm..i tink find 1 day next wk on either monday or tues go watch myself...hmm...anyone wan watch can call mi..i sure on wan..hhaa...

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7:23 AM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Philips Carnival sAles [Veri tired]

yupx..went to work at Philip carnival sales today..arggg..veri tired..wake up 615 in de morning where everyone was still sleeping n meet xing yun they all at toa payoh at 730..not enough sleep manz..de day before i onli slept at 3 plus..when mao shan call mi tat time, i reali wish i can close back my eyes n carry on sleeping..haha..if i do tat,MS will be in deep trouble..haha...i was distributed to DEMO counter n luckily with jk n gq if not i will be damn bored..all along we entertain each other so de time can pass fastter..haha..when i first saw de time, it was onli 1045 but when i see it de 2nd time, it was already 4 le..this explain hw fast the time goes when working there..the auntie there were very gd..keep giving us smoothie n cocktail to drink..haha..veri friendly in fact..but tough ar our counter..soak in de water for 7 hr washing every stuff there...n aso squad for de whole period..my leg till nw was so cramp n numb..my pants were all wet n my shoes n sock aso..at one point i went to work at de rick cooker station,argg..was so tiring..juz 15min there, i was sweating like hell...need alot of man power there..lucky i was not in tat counter or de IRON counter..james do de packaging all by himself..hhaa..u can c his sweat was like a running tap water...wahahah...gd for him,who tell him everytime wan to disturb mi..we ard 430 like tat, we finish everything le..we were slacking ard till 6 something waiiting for de carnival sales to end..
after the working, we went to watch "little man"..was a veri funny show..i like the 2 actors..like white chick,they excel in this movie again..haha...worth watching manz...haha..laugh for almost de whole show..ermm..saw someone familar today, was trying to keep a look out if she was around..but nvmm...after de show, we went to de KOPITIAM nearby to hav our dinner n off we went hm..

tml got 1 more day of work..arg..been working straight for 7 days..veri tiring...wan to earn lots of $$ during this hoiliday..went to yamaha to ask abt de fees for piano learning..argg..veri ex manz..haiz..xianz..learn from my sister beta...haha..arg..actually wanted to go to my grandma hse to watch de match "man utd vs spurs" but my legs was like no energy lorz..n i scare half way thru i doze off...so decided to stay at hm to slp earlier so tml can wake up on time at 615 to go for work..hope a better day for us tml..without much washing if not my hand reali wan to hav no feeling liaoz..so NUMBED..hhaa...=)nitez

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8:58 AM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Get it from a BoOk..

深深的痛
不应该放开你的手
最爱的人
伤我太深
深深的变成悔恨

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7:44 AM

Monday, September 04, 2006

WoRkiNg dAy!!

today went to work as usual..hmm..poor sales today..stand there for de whole afternoon but onli a few customer..last month sales wasn't as gd or veri bad..onli hit 10k+++ where de JAMES hit 40k lehz..argg...lose by so big magin..xianz..wan to chiong sales this mth..hhaa..

today Jims work at ps den de Jason kanna sack already..xianz..but aso not bad la..jims work here got 1 more ppl to tok crap with..haha..today finally gotten my WMVP..wahhahaa..5 yrs le finally get 1..i will keep it like my precious de..haha..

BEING HAPPY DOESN'T MEAN EVERYTHING IS PERFECT!!!

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8:42 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

eaRly sunDay

today wake up quite early..haha...wake up ard 12..hmm..during this holiday,this is de earliest tat i wake up le..lolx..den i order pizza for mi sister n mi to eat coz my mum is out to genting...we're starving at hm n lazy to go out too so order delivery..haha...we order de chezzy pizza..de portion was big tat we 3 cant finish all..haha..den after tat, i meet lum who juz finish his BMT training..so long nv c him le,thought after BMT will becum fit,but still look de same to mi la..haha...we went to PS..i bought a NIKE bag..erm..at first i wan a white wan but in de end no stock le so i take de black wan lorz..dunno look nice anot lehz..argg...hope i dun make a wrong choice...cost mi $50 plus $30 vouncher..haha..after tat i went to watch de "monster hse"..de story was lame la..arggg.wasted my $9.5..

got to work tml..going to slp le..nitez...=)

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11:34 AM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Soccer tiMe!

yupx..went to kick soccer today with faqih, james n de bunch of sec frenz today..haha..score a goal today..not a beauty,juz those tap in goal..haha..sense of satisfactory coz tat goal was de goal tat kick out de strongest team on de court today..haha..haiz...guess hav to reali start training so i can improve on my shooting n dribbling..like still not much confidence holding on de ball..once i train or improve myself le, i sure prove those ppl who always tok big or those sarcastic comment on me tat i cant kick soccer wrong..

didn't catch any slp from until finish soccer today...fri james,mi , n *** went to marina south to play WCCF again..reali no kick le..so bored..find de virtual tennis more interesting..haha..play with james for ard $5 still cant pass de 2nd stage..hhaa....damn tough..no communication between us..haha..at first, i thought i was confused which player i am coz i play double with him..den i any run which in turn like he vs 2 com...haha..hav lots of fun...hope more gathering to follow..=)

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11:48 AM