Thursday, August 31, 2006
Unappreciated..
juz feel so alone nowadays..no one to turn to when sad, no one to share my happiness when i am happy..but i tink i will get over it real soon..can i??juz feel something tat is stuck in my hrt but cant get it right out from there..but i guess i took de first step out le..by keeping de RING instead of wearing it always..wad i wan nw is juz pure frenship n i hope able to fulfil tat with u?? knowing u have reali make my life more complete with beautiful memories i wun forget..i guess these memories will be left in my hrt for a long long time...seeing u happy have reali ease de emptiness inside mi..=) u have make mi a more complete person..best wishes to ur prelim n A's level!!=)
hmm..juz watch de "she's de man"..watch so many time le still find it nice..de story was touching..hope i can find de ger of my dream real soon..=)
i wan to play basketball n soccer...anyone free can join mi..haha..
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
10:15 AM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
TiRed BuT fUn!!!
back hm after 3 days out to de chalet..hmm...veri veri tired when i reach home today coz been awake for de past 2 days..arggg...my eyes bag are veri big..becoz of those prank Jk,Gq n faqih play on those ppl who are soundly asleep keep mi awake..i dun wan to be their next victim..haha...after i reach hm,i go bath n straight after tat,poom!!sound asleep in my bed..until nw which is about 1am...haha...thought i can slp till de next morning ,hoping to replenish de 2 days slp tat i miss during de chalet...haha...scare of de 'YU XIANG FEN'!!
1st day
meet jk at my hse ard 930 going to to pasir ris to meet Xy while on de way to meet Ms aso...haha..can u imagine a 18 yr old ger who dunno hw to take bus to de pasir ris mrt station..ahah..haha...present to u is our PN ah fei-XY..blur queen sia..haha...when we reach there, she was drinking a barcardi n her face were so red..like clown like tat..lolx..den we head down to orchard to taunt de nitez there..hmm..we meet kiat at cine at first but find ourself real late but thanx to Jk stunt, we manage to sneak by..telling kiat 15 min more + 15 min more which add up to 1 hr pluss....haha..nxt time i dun belief jk liaoz if he tell mi he is reaching in 15 more min..lolx..once all of us is gather le den we go have supper at the kopitiam nearby n head down to cine to meet alvin to take from him de KBOX card..hhaha...he cut his hair le n was like damn ugly lorz..haha..acting punk ar..so wierd.. de we spend de nitez there at the KTV..
2nd day
hmm..alll of us were so tired after de kbox session..everyone was trying to find some place to lie down to slp..Ms n Xy was soundly asleep at the MAC at ps there..was afraid lorz..coz actually was suppose to work at de istana park there..but jk n mi stunt at de last min den we decided to pon lorz...trying to make us awake,we watch movie "snake on de plane" hoping to pass de time more quickly aso hope de movie effect can scare us awake n it reali did..de movie was quite nice coz of de sound effect...reali keep us awake for de whole show..disappointing is i thought de anaconda would be de main thing to watch but end up after eating 1 guy n was dead after being blown out of de window..hhaa...while waiting for de show to start, all of us were like a living zombie lorz...hhaa...doing things like playing "catching" try to make each other not slpy..
after de show, we meet up xy to go buy de chalet food coz xy go hm to bath coz she scare de cold water in de chalet..after buying our thing den we head down to downtown east to meet up with de "couple"..yupz.. we reach there den all of us de first thing is to bath le den lie on de bed to slp..hahaa..couple 1 n couple 2 went cycling while jk was asleep n teck was playing his ps2 as usual..left mi n ms to settle de chalet bbq..but after a short while de rest cum down n help us with it..hmm...tink de food we bought too much le coz cnt finish a whole lot of it..chicken wing,sotong ball,crabstick,corn n stingrays...
gy cum ard 11 like tat n we went out to buy some liqour..before she cum,mi,jk,ms already drink up a bottle of barcardi le n was quite dizzy le so when both xy,gy n us walking to de 711 at white sand there, was like them bring 3 half drunk guy out...haha...
after reaching de chalet,ms go slp le n we went to pasir ris park there to play de "spider"..all of them went to de top to take pic while xy n mi were below to take pic of them...aha..play until ard 3 n we head back to de chalet to bath..we bath at de swimming pool toilet there coz chalet toilet onli cater to 1 ppl while other hav to wait so we go there as everyone can bath at de same time...
upon reaching de chalet,de rest were going to slp while mi ,jk,n gq were drinking downstair de bottle of vodka...gq were KO after 2 cup n jk was almost half gone..gq eat 4 banana +bannna skin coz he lose de game we were playing while jk drink some soya sauce+banana skin+orange+magarine+black pepper+'YU XIANG FEN'..de drink muz reali taste YUCKS!!!haha..lucky nv lose ..=)
Last day
3 of us hav our breakfast at mac le den head back to de chalet to slack ard n to aso wake them up..haha..hw do we noe we fall asleep...haha..slp until ard 10 den they wake us up to check out de room..den we went back hm by train...
Took some pic of everyone at the chalet n will upload them soon..haha...=)nitez
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
10:09 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
MeAninGfuL lyRics *[Armageddon]*
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if its me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
1:18 AM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
2nd day of holiday = same old routine..
basically no life ba..haiz..wake up le den watch some movie in my laptop n off to work...back from work le den go run...argg..so xianz..like adam sadler[CLICK], hw i wish i can skip those chapter of my life away.. as like tat i can be happier...forget those boring,sad chapter of my life instead enjoy those happy moment..today i watch de "CLICK" 2nd time...it was a nice as de first time i watch..this show reali have rank top few of the favourite movie i watch..haha..like de part where adam sadler say gdbye to his dad...was veri touching and aso de part where he died..i tink this 2 part have reali make ppl heart melt..i esp luv de part when he was dying n was passing de notez to danna[his wife] :"will you still luv mi in de morning" n she replied; "forever n ever,babe"..
hmm..hoping to find someone who will say forever n ever to mi when i say those words..anyway i xiang tong lots of thing le when i was running...i wun dwell at the past le..i will move forward de..belief mi!!i noe each have its own life le n i will live happily with mine..no use clinging on to something from de past..frenz r such de thing tat can still exist instead of gf n bf..finally my mind is working...haha...do more meaningful thing during this holiday....HAPPY ALWAYS!!!=)
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
8:27 AM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
First day of holiday = boring!
juz de start of de holiday, i can feel de time ahead will be much harder to pass..been real boring today...wake up le den went to work...is like slp-work routine/cycle like tat..damn no life...i wan to find something to do if not i sure bored to death wan...went running after cuming back from work..today like no mood to run lehz..but i force myself to run coz i wan to slim down....i wan to have a change in appearance...i damn hate my looks manz...maybe tats y i hate to take individual photo ba...
planning to take up another job after finish work at carrefour...i wan to noe more frenz to broaden my life cycle..this aso can help kill sometime instead of seating at hm doing nothing...nw in msn aso nothing to tok le...it is always de same old topic cuming out..not to log in too often le n spend more time running...
and today, when i was going toilet tat time, de glass in PS fall from first floor to near where i am standing..lucky de glass didn't hit my head if not i sure die le..de impact was so big lorz..de shatter glasss was all over de floor until de pasta mania there..hmm...n luckily no one got hurt..n mi, de unlucky wan only got some scratches on my hand..wonder if i reali got hit by de glass, more ppl to concern mi???
hope there's a better day tml.. hope can c a brand new mi with high self confidence,better looking Kenny when sch reopen...nitez!!!
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
9:38 AM
First day of holiday = boring!
juz de start of de holiday, i can feel de time ahead will be much harder to pass..been real boring today...wake up le den went to work...is like slp-work routine/cycle like tat..damn no life...i wan to find something to do if not i sure bored to death wan...went running after cuming back from work..today like no mood to run lehz..but i force myself to run coz i wan to slim down....i wan to have a change in appearance...i damn hate my looks manz...maybe tats y i hate to take individual photo ba...
planning to take up another job after finish work at carrefour...i wan to noe more frenz to broaden my life cycle..this aso can help kill sometime instead of seating at hm doing nothing...nw in msn aso nothing to tok le...it is always de same old topic cuming out..not to log in too often le n spend more time running...
and today, when i was going toilet tat time, de glass in PS fall from first floor to near where i am standing..lucky de glass didn't hit my head if not i sure die le..de impact was so big lorz..de shatter glasss was all over de floor until de pasta mania there..hmm...n luckily no one got hurt..n mi, de unlucky wan only got some scratches on my hand..wonder if i reali got hit by de glass, more ppl to concern mi???
hope there's a better day tml.. hope can c a brand new mi with high self confidence,better looking Kenny when sch reopen...nitez!!!
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
9:38 AM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
MemOries of E36E..=)
Today was de last day of sch which mark de end of the semester and aso E36E..haiz..xianz..got to change class when de sch reopen..dunno wad type of classmate i will get..dunno whether can click with them anot and so on n so on..miss this class manz..bunch of crapper in de class and FM manic boast the enjoyable moment n memories...times passes veri fast worz..a blink of eyes n it is de end of de semester...sad to leave this class manz..but too bad.. we hav to move on..hw i wish de class could bond earlier which may leave a more beautiful memories...today is de first day we eat as a class..all de class almost wear black n white...can feel those sense of bondness in de class ar...de atmosphere was great..=)everyone were so 'ON'..haha...even de faci in class[MAG]..miss u too...haha...u teach mi for 2 semester le n i hope plenty more to cum...gonna torture u again if u teach my class..haha...as 445 which is de end of de last UT n aso de last day of sch..looking at everyone walking out..hhaa..can say se bu de ba...this class have been great at least for nw...at first, i hate de class manz..everyone was so quiet..no different from cemetry...hhaha..but after the 3wk break..de guys in de class started toking to each other n de gers too... den more crap were cuming out n soon it became a change of environment...last time i dread cuming to sch but as it drew closer to problem 16...arggg..hope can rewind de time...haha..miss the time where de guys play FM,go TOILet,disturb each other msn n so many nonsence..haha...this type of things r those that bond individual together..took quite alot of pic today..hope able to learn hw to upload de pic to this blog..dunno hw long it would take but i try k?hahaha...
hmm..y when u lose the thing u use to hav den u noe hw important it is? y dun treasure the gd moment when u still can until u lose it..ahah...so many ques yet so little ans..in search of de true ans...n i hope to meet up with E36E real soon..if possible as a class..haha...nitez....
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
9:15 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006
mOnday bLuE aGaIn!!!
today reach sch ard 945 ba coz meeting Guo hao n wei da for breakfast at causeway point LJS[long john silver]..by the time we reach there, our fac dunno go where liaoz..haha..quite surprising tat almost all de class were present..have been quite a long time to c de class with full attendance except for some absentees..haha...everyone in de class today were playing games ba..all in holiday mood le..haha..aso true la.. tml last day of sch le...going to change class soon..xianz..dunno wad type of classmate i will get next semester...hope dun kanna de few 88 in de opposite class de..lolx..pray hard..>.<..quite sad sia..took so long to bond yet when it started to bond le den hav to separate again..i hate RP system.. wad de use of changing class every sem..juz waste of time..damn RP..juz make use of the time spend together tml..hope will be an enjoyable day tml b..yupx.. tml de guys in our class would be wearing black n de gers wearing white for de class photos..haha..unique ar!!juz wan to leave something special before leaving de class..=)
after sch today went to watch movie with xy,jk n ms.. we watch de 'Ghost game'..quite a nice show n scary too..but worth to watch ba..not like de "break up" movie we watch last thurs..damn boring...wanna fall asleep liaoz..but tats one sentence they say make mi feel quite true la..is something like this.."it doesn't matter wad things u do to feel happy, is de doing something with someone u luv tat make u realise wad happiness r" was something like tat la..forget de actual sentence le...de time when he say to jennifer anniston were so touching...haha..after watching de movie, jk mi n ms went to nearby to eat some desert before heading hm..
hmm... i tink i too noisy le la..will make piss off when i tok to much..maybe i dunno where is de limit where i muz stop..some ppl may juz wun be able to take it..maybe i juz keep my mouth shut not to piss off others ba.. i juz dun understand...juz making a jk to spice up de atmosphere would aso cause a negative effect on others... i reali dunno wad i do den is consider correct.. i feel kinda sick of everything as times goes by.. nothing i do seem rite... maybe juz leave myeslf there to rot ba...i reali hope can find someone who truely understand hw i feel nw and the things i facing nw.. i care abt hw ppl look at mi n i dunnno hw to correct myself..i feel so lost..=(
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
9:04 AM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
sTart of MaN uTd eRa
juz back hm after watch de match between man utd and fulham..haha..man utd won 5-1 with rooney[2],ronaldo,saha and a courtesy of an own goal[pearce] netting..de match was damn exciting... with the opening 20min already deliver 4 goals le..haha..been veri long since i saw man utd plaing with such pace..hope more to come for them..
hmm..i ran to my grandma hse to watch de match instead of taking bus as to make use of the journey to lose some weight and ran hm after tat..i think reali look fat..xianz..i tink i got to run everyday in order to lose weight..hope by the start of new semester can look more slimmer..=)
hmm..chat with *her juz nw..thought reali make her angry when she read my blog, glad tat everything was going finez nw..=). hope no ill feeling is left between us..i reali came with no motive only wan to state my feeling n i hope u understand tat...=)
okiez..i go slp le..tml still got scg..looking forward going to sch to meet up with the bunch of guys..FM times..hhaa..hope tat ba gey dun stunt tml say "i wan to do work"..lolx..okiez... last 2nd day of E36E le..hope can make use of the quality time spend together as a class...nitez!!
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
8:22 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Alvin's birthday
yupx..juz cum back after celebrating alvin birthday...haha..have lots of fun at there..lolx..alvin was flat dead at there..was like a jelly fish..wahha..a repeat of wad happen in my chalet during the celebration of my birthday..but was more worse..haha
firstly, i meet xing yun at ps at ard 230..haha..we went to c de OSIM Imedic launch new spokeman[Louis Khoo]..he was veri handsome..like those cool cool type of celebrities..haha..hw i wish i can look half as handsome as him..haha..i think he is those type of guy every gers dream to have ba..lolx..ard 4 jeen ke came to meet us at HMV...haha..we were wandering ard orchard area lorz..dunno wad to do to kill de time coz we meeting quek at 1130..haha..the time different was so big lorz..ard 6 hrs plus..we went to quek workplace to tease him..den we went to lucky plaza to eat n play pool.. the food there were like yucks...cant finish all coz it reali taste like sux....we den went to play pool leaving my chicken rice 3/4 left..haha..jeen ke were quite pro la..haha..those typical ah beng lorz..smoke,drink,vulgar n pool..haha..there was once he was acting cool lorz while standing there when mi n xy were playing..haha..de pose were like those professional model lorz...lolx.. after playing pool was like ard 7 le.. we went to paragon to shop for quek present...at first i was tempted to buy de Swarowiki[argg..dunno hw to spell la..lolx] csytal duck for him but change my mind after tat coz it was so ex lorz..cost ard $100..=(.. we den at last decided to buy a liverpool polo tee for him..i find it quite nice lorz...tempted to buy 1 for myself..haha..saw 3 things taat i wan to buy when i take my nxt pay....a ADIDAS wind breaker,liverpool jersey n a black n white adidas +10 t-shirt..hhaa...dunno shop for myself or for him..we den head for ps to find andrew n aso have our dinner there..we went to eat de mini steamboat..was reali veri nice..1 thing to mention lorz... tat xy,andrew and jk horz reali bastard mi lorz....make mi dun dare to walk pass de b2 hotdog stall liaoz..haha..we den stroll down to lucky plaza to find alvin n de others....tat xy like got wings liao lorz..i shoot her once she shoot mi 10 times back..haha...reali cannot tahan her.. we went to ffind sin teck first n aso have a free cup of BIG guLp first..haha..2nd time le..hee hee... FREE de!!!while waiting for him, we sat at de bench nearby to chat to pass de time as it is still 11 by then..haha..tat xy were so afraid of cockroach lorz.. haha..it was like when they disturb mi n hotdog mei...ahah..she was so scare i throw de cockroach at her...keep pleading mi..wahahaha...after tecl change le den we go meet calvin n quek at lucky plaza tat giordano there...after meeting them we went to kbox at cineleisure..
tats when quek starting to taste wad happen to mi durin my birthday tat time..haha.. jk mi n andrew already plan to get de birthday boy drunk n i was de one who started de plan first.. we try to make him drink by playing game n slowly slowly he was on his way to his dreamland..haha... we took lots of picture while he was cutting his cake n blowing de candles..hmm..fun ehh..by 3, quek was fully KO..he lie flat at de sofa n was veri noisy thruout lorz,... haha..he even puke water out on my shirt..haha..lucky was onli plain water..n hui ru came ard 4 n was hlf drunk tooo ..it was a diff task taking care of 2 drunkard...haha.... the latter part is where jk,mi n andrew sing all de way till de end...n de rest was alseep n drunk.hha.. unforgettable nitez & birthday for him..mi n andrew send quek hm after tat den we go have breakfast n after tat there was where i am nw...blogging...haha..enjoyable nitez...hope it would keep in his mind 4eva ba...haha..getting real tired nw..going to slp le..=)
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
5:02 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
RuNniNg Day
juz came back hm after running..lolx..first time since dunno when..i tink before world cup started ba..haha...damn tiring....=0..was sweating like hell..i tink too long nv run le ba..lucky there still some stamina left in me to run from my hse to clarke quay there..haha..took amost 30 min to run there..arggg...when i reach there, i sit down to cool down awhile den run back hm..took 1 hr journey to reacch hm..when i reach hm already was 1130 le..haha..but was relaxing la..running alone..feel veri stress free only veri tiring..haha..look like my leg need more running to build up more muscle..wahahaha..if not nxt time i run again sure feel veri tired de..hw i wish there's someone to run with mi..dun mind hw long de journey is...haha..wishful tinking on my part..hiaz...
finally, today our class have at least take a class photo after so long..hw i wish this class can bond as a class not as a goup..it seem like de gers n de guys are not veri bonding ya...i like this class veri much..haha..hope it does end up in my best memories as a great class..haiz..too bad..changing class soon le..kinda se bu de..today de class photo like not de whole class worz..some were absent..haha..hope by tues can have a full class picture by then..hmm..tat daniel man[FAcilitator] camera shooting sux man..still multimedia fac somemore..wad shit..cant even take a pic properly..cant even c de face properly lorz..even my frenz can take better picc..asss...wasted de space..haha.. de guys today wear shirt sia...thought everyone will stunt...haha..unexpectedly reali everyone wear cum sch..ahaha..nice one guys..haha..have another class photo shooting on tues... hope everyone was present....haha.. so can take de last n only E36E pic...=)
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
9:22 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
FUn dAy ouT wiTh E36E gAng!!![toh,ba gey,baby..lolx]
yupx..today went outing with the E36E gang..haha..i did enhoy myself today with them crapping all de way..haha..firstly one thing i wan to say is i rmb someone[BABY!!!]call mi say dun be late for de outing ar when i juz woke up..i say okiez..confirm wun be late de..but guess wad..he was late when he pass de exact time he was suppose to meet us..he was still at SEMBAWANG..damn it..haha...that ah toh was aso late.. but was glad that none of us cum stunt except XIN HUA..daniel,his gf, mi,tristan n wei da was the only few tat reach early so we went ard taka to c if there's other alternative to have our buffet..we thought of seol garden but in de end we decide to have it at yuki yaki.. we went to cine n tats when tat baby n ah toh reaches...to compensate for his late cuming, GH have to sit at the edge of the table..lolx...it feel so wierd lorz..blocking the pathway..haha..but who cares! who tell him so late..lucky ah toh was earlier den him if not he was de wan tat hav to sit on gh seat..lolx.. the buffet was so filling lorz..tat wei da hav finish up ard 10 plate of cream puff which equal to 40 but of coz with our help la..haha..tat ah toh take de plate like nobody business like tat..haha..lucky we finish all if not have extra charges..de oyster n mushroom were nice..but too bad my mushroom till de moment we went off still haven cum..haha..late hero ar!!haha..they make mi eat thing tat i nv eat b4..some taste quite gd while others taste like yuckS!lolx..i bet we have our stomach fill after this buffet..
after de buffet,daniel n his gf went on their couple tour n tat leave 5 of us guys..haha..we went to play xbox..wei da was so aggitated when playing winning eleven with gh until he throw his keys..haha..tristan go back half way to our game..after playing xbox, we went to play pool..haha,,tat gh stunt sia..almost clear de table liaoz with wei da not even score a single ball, he stunt all of us by playing de black ball in de hole..haha..same goes for my match against him...he even throw de cue until almost hit other ppl..haha..wad the morale of de story...dun giv up until de end,,wahaha..we 3 laugh until stomach cramp sia..after de pool we went to disturb wei da in de toilet..he was shitting by then..we hide in de cubicle beside him n ah toh threw toilet paper into his cubicle but too bad he already go out liaoz..haha..he was so afraid tat we took a video of him shitting..haha..we went shopping looking for clothes..i wanted to buy a formal shirt coz i reali doesn't have many at hm..after searching for ard 1 to 2 hr..cant find any tat i like n we decided to head hm coz we were rushing for de 10pm channel U show..it was de last esp n everyone of us wanted to noe de ending..haiz..den ending was sad..fang qing decided to leave xiao sheng...not de ending i expected..ah feng was aso not found..my sis say de nxt esp would be de return of ah feng..i hope fang qing aso return..=) i ask myself y Does luving a person need to go thru so much tribulation..hiaz..it is difficult to someone who luv u n even more difficult to find someone u luv so y cant they be together..i guess i may nv able to find tat so call true luv ba..it is like fang qing n xiao sheng..xiao sheng still in de end choose a ger tat once break her his heart instead of choosing someone who luv him wholeheartedly..life juz not fair..=( does past memories cannot be replaced??i wish i got de courage to move on like wad fang qing does but it juz doesnt happen to mi..hoping for mircale ba!!=)
amost to 1 le..guess going to slp le if not i'll be late tml..meeting ba gey n baby tml 845 at de woodland mrt station...nitez!
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
9:01 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
ChaNce! sAd or haPpy??
yupxx..back hm after cuming back from Plaza singapura..actually meet andrew to buy clothes de in plaza sing but in de end i end up with him at starhub shop after work..he wanted to buy hp after juz taking pay ystd..haha..pay abt $310 for de N70 at 2yr plan..he wanted to buy k810 de but after being psycho by the people working there, he decided to change to n70..wad a big change lorz..de price difference were abt $100..haha..from SE to NOKIA..but n70 i tink beta la..got I-mode n is also a 3G phone..haha,,envy is envy la..but i still like my hp, n i dun tink i need to change coz it still function perfectly..SAVE $$$$..aha..
Actually going to drink with jeen ke after buying hp de..but becoz i need to rush hm to watch de channel u-10pm de show..de show were super nice lorz..touching..wish xiao sheng in de end can choose fang qing lorz coz i tink she is beta den ah zi..haha..i tok so much aso no use..u all muz watch it urself..ahah..tml last esp le..xianz...thurs going to show some korean show..arggg..but aso gd la..can u use the time to jog...hhaa..i wanna slim down..
hmmm..quite surprise that *her* today msn mi first to engage in the conversation..heard tat she was sick..hope she can get well soon ba..it have been exactly 1 wk since i last contact her..quite surprise she msn mi..i wasn't sure was her until i double check..A level cuming le..i tink she probably too stress le..hope she take care of her own health while coping with de studies..coz at least as a frenz i dun wish her to study until forget her own health..wish her all de best for her A level.. anyway it have help to bring up my mood a little coz it been de first time since she reali have try to tok to mi first..maybe i too sensitive ba..but luving a person muz be 2 sided de ma so if de one u like have tok to u, it would surely cheer u up..
been veri tired this days...ok..i go slp le..hope tml will be a better day...=)
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
8:49 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006
MoNday bLue..
today my mood seems quite bad ba..seem rather piss off by someone..everytime c him my blood sure boil wan..he wan to act infront of my frenz n when he is with his so-called gf, he would act as if he got lots of $$ n like so brave like tat..f*** off manz..u wan to act plz dun act infront of a person tat seen thru ur true colours..u r juz a pathetic bas****..
went to work today n have dinner with my boss.. n went hm straight after tat..haiz..life getting more n more boring..i dunno hw to describe ba..is juz feel like so meaningless..i ask myself ; "wad de use of study so hard for", "wad de use of earning so much $$", "where is my happiness" , "when can i reali be free" n so on with no solution to de question... my life is so dull..been 1 wk since i sms her.. haiz..i dun tink she even tink of tat ba..my sms to her maybe be straight to de 'DELETE' button..maybe i shd reali hav stop..........=(
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8:10 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
sLAckiNg
back hm after watching de community shield between LIVERPOOL n CHELSEA..glad tat liverpool hav won thru the courtesy of RISSE n errrr CROUCH...
haiz..boring sunday..stay at hm whole day doing nothing..nothing much done so my blog end here..nitez!
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9:26 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
BoRing Day..
another boring day has passed n i am here to blog..hmm..monday is cuming again..so fast de my wkend has ended n ended in de most boring way...
wake up at 5 today n was watching tv till 7 when i decided to prepare myself to get ready to meet andrew for de firework..andrew reach my hse at ard 740 ba..haha..he was nv early..but expected la..coz he is de drunkard that was crapping all along clarke quay ystd..haah..he skip work today and luckily farizah who is our supervisor was off too...damn it..he was lucky..lolx... reach esplanade ard 830 ba n was trying to find a way pass de crowd..there were too much ppl wanting to catch a glimpse of the last firework..this is my 4th time as many time shown for de firework..so nothing much fazed mi..manage to squezze by n catch de firework at de same place where i watch for de past time time i hav watch..haha..today's firework is most beautiful tat i hav seen especially de closing of de firework..de sky was er..m...so BEAUTIFUL..haha..so bright..reali shd hav record it down..those who nv watch it reali was wasteed..den after de firework, we went down to find shannon n yu yuan to hav andrew document sign..yupx..chat with yu yuan for awhile n aso in de meantime have help andrew advertise de video i hav take while he was drunk..wahahaha..we den walk down lucky plaza to find alvin...we went to watch ANTZ BULLY at cineleisure...quite a nice show but only lasted 1h 15min..wasted!after de show, we walk down to de kpoitiam at PS there to hav something to eat and off we went hm...boring ar!!
hiaz..feeling rather depress this few day..i miss her alot..as reading her blog, found out that she ystd hav watch de firework too BUT with a guy as stated in her blog..tat guy hav a car..hw i wish i hav one too so i can drive her ard..too bad.. i am ugly n aso a pauper..all i can afford is only cab n buses..not car..i tink i rather detestable person ba..tats y she choose not to go out with mi..my luv life have not gone smoothly or let's say hav nv reali started..all along my mind hav her n only her n ever since hav nv reali engage in other r/s b4..guess that is my fate ba..no use fighting a losing battle.. my confidence is getting lower n lower as day goes by..=(
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1:28 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
Another dRunkArd niTez [Andrew ,mi, ms,jk and liang yun ]
yupx..today we went to drink again..same place at BERWERZ at clarke quay there after de firework..speaking of the firework..today's is de most beautiful firework compare to the other 2 i have seen..is like meteor rain!!haha..a fan of the firework at esplanade..have been present for all de firework show..haha..yupx..same gang [PN roz]-->liang yun,mi,jk,xy,ms..erm.. sat is de last show..haiz..hw i wish i can watch with *her* for de last show..i saw many ccouple catching a shot of the firework using their digital cam n handPhone..hw envy i am...=(
hmm..after tat firework..we 4 guys meet up with andrew coz morning jk n mi have promise to make him drunk tonite..i guess he hav prepare himself aso..haha..wonder if de colour blind guy can c de different colour of the firework..haha..it was so crowded that we took amost 15 min juz to get outt of the esplanade to marina square..XY meet up with her bf and off she went..we go de place where we go on tues coz de beer taste quite gd..haha..this time we order 2 tower of de strongest brew..our plan started..everyone start to toast andrew until de 1st tower were finish..jk n mi were spotting andrew that he was abit drunk liaoz..coz he was toking lots of crap..haha..finally by the end of the 2 tower..the "different" side of andrew where i noe him for 8 years have appear..haha...nv saw him drunk unitl like tat b4..he was so noisy that he was toking crap all along from DAIMARU to BOAT QUAY..haha..he even tease de 2 policeman when they were patroling..he even try to prove himself were not drunk by working straight using the square pattern on the platform..haha..i still hav de video..haha..this is my revenge when u try to shot every moment when i drunk and hospitalise.. ms go hm abt 1am where we 4 hang up till nw 720...they slp at de riverside from 3 to 5 where we go mac n hav some drink..i nv slp for de whole nitez although i was abit drunk..actually i was trying to get myself drunk but in de end..andrew was de one getting it..looking after him was tiring..while siiting up for de whole nitez taking care of them..i thought abt lots of thing..haiz...*her* image keep appearing in my mind..thought abt moment where we write letters ,work together..i really treasure de time where we work 1 day at the china sqare there..i guess there's de onlly thing in my memories rite nw..i like de previous her..she was so pure by then..not saying she hav change by then but that's wad attract to mi tat time..human change over time..but i tink i have nv move on then..still de same old stupid mi!!kinda despise myself..neither clever nor handsome..maybe together with her may create a impression of a toad over a swan flesh....getting drunk for a moment can reali help in forgetting her for a sh0rt period of time..sometime juz thought of seeing her face can feel much more happier..haven been 3 wk since i last saw her..kinda miss *her*..juz hope she can be happier can le..and i guess she is nw..i tink loving a person is nt having her by my side as long as she is happy as wad she is nw is already veri pleasing to mi le...feel like passing her de econs notes but if i bring to her hse..it may seems abit wierd n i tink she wun like it ba..i aso dunno hw to pass it to her..=(
hiaz..going to 8am le..i tink i going to slp le..hope can wake up later coz i wan to go running n play basketball..i wan to slim down n more more tannnn..haha..=)anyway later at nitez watching de last show of the firework...hope can c her ba...watching her from afar is all i wanted...hope she got go ba..
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
4:08 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Tired!
de day gone by as usual;study and den go for work..kinda growing tired of it...
after school, take de train with Wei da to work..at least i feel beta when i reach my workplace..there's annie n ah bee to chat.. there are gd listener,they everytime giv mi advice but i juz cant absorb it into my mind..too stubborn le like wad they say..but i reali feel much beta when i let off wad in my mind..sometimes when thing are hide in urself, u feel beta when u let it off ur chest...
hmm..feel veri tired today..gonna slp soon..update my blog tml if there's time ba..=)
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
6:50 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
National Day=bOring day
woke up ard 2 after being a drunkard ystd when JAMES call mi to ask wad time i go work..everytime i fall asleep so soundly, he confirm will wake mi up de..haha..seem like a curse..
Saw *her* blog today..she ystd hav skip sch and went out with her frenz...i guess she have catch a glimse of the firework ytd and she seem to enjoy herself ba.. i guess de hint she given mi , i get it now le..she have been avoiding mi..she told mi she got to study ystd when i ask her out to c de firework on sat..but after reading her blog, i guess i reali shd back out nw rather den proving a real pest infront of her..
When tink back, i tink i really veri stupid..to think tat i hav learn some econ[A level] as juz hoping to prove some help to her but i dun tink it reali matter nw..i try to do more maths and at the same time try to learn something tat i did not even noe juz trying to able to help her in a way or another..but i guess it is meaningless nw..she hav her own frenz to help...my existence is juz a glance from her.. tml i taking the econ notes from my frenz...i wanted to pass it to her at first, but i now dunno if reali i should now...she seem rather satisfied with her life nw..
saw *her* post for today, she ask whether would anyone do tat for her [KISS-not yet a woman]??which is a mtv abt a guy who donate her eyes to the ger he like..to be frank, i will do it for her but does she willing to be de ger tat like the guy as much as de guy like her..if there's luv between each other, i even dare to sacrifice my life for her but wad if de ger doesn''t even put u inside her heart before???is it worth? i reali dunno..i have been feeling veri depress nwadays..i juz hope i be able to overcome it sooner...
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
7:23 AM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
PN gathering/first experience
juz reaches home abt 4..came blogging coz nw i could not slp..haha.. this is my first post and the reason for writing a blog is because i tink this is de only way i can let out wad i dare to to say in real person ba..
Today is the day where de long lost PN pals [Xing yun,Celina,jeen ke,kiat,mao shan,faqih,gq,mi and lastly sin teck] meet up for a gathering since dunno when..haha..i meet up with guan qun n jeen ke at Tiong bahru MRT station at 1 and then they company mi back hm to change clothes to get ready for cycling with xing yun they all at east coast park. we reaches east coast park ard 330..haha.. if i noe that we reach there so late, i would not hav skip sch..haha..i miss de class and the bunch of buddy in sch..i noe they surely will cum stunt when i turn up for sch on thurs..my AC milan and Man city surely would be in relegation battle..lolx...thats wad i learn when i came to noe wad they did when AH TOH was not ard..haha..erm.. we cycle for ard 1 hr 15 min den we decide to go marina square for dinner.. but as expected, it turn up to be de same as sat as all seat was taken up and patheticly we bought out packet dinner[CAVANA] and eat on the grass patch while waiting for de firework to begin..The Singapore firework were veri nice as compare to de italy firework when we saw on sat.. the firework were all recorded by xing yun in her digital cam...haha..when i recieve the pic n video den i upload ba..i sms *her* when de firework were abt to start but she nv reply.. haiz.. i reali dunno wad else i can do anymore.. i already try wad i shd do in order to giv my concern n encouragement to *her*..maybe in *her* heart i didn't reali exist ba.. i dare not to let go of *her* coz i reali luv her alot but sometime if u pull de fishing line too hard, it may break..
After the firework, i went to drink with mao shan,teck n jk..hav some heart to heart talking chat with them..ermm..sometime appearance may be decieving..haha..get to know more secret abt them but dun worry, i wun tell anyone unless u wan mi to..hahahaha..mi n jk were getting abit drunk were toking alot of crap along the way..poor mao shan n teck have to accomodate with our nonsence...haha..we go GEYLANG to hav some soya milk with you tiao..haha den decide to walk along the *chicken lane..haha..they were so many whores along the lane where some even hav number tag on them..haha..first experience seh..nv reali go to there to explore..haha..if i were not drunk , i tink i would hav nv gone there..hmm..1 thing i came to noe is when u r drunk, u dare to be more daring to speak or do something u dare not to do when u r sober ba..haha..
After de exploring trip, we go to hav a drink in de coffeeshop and take a cab home after tat... mi n jk were veri much awake after the trip.. we were sober enough to hav more round of drink until we went dead drunk,....hhaha..
Haiz..have been drinking lots of beer n liquor this few days..dunno y lehz..i noe drinking is not gd but i tink it is de only way to forget *her* temporary ba..picking up smoking n drink along the way..haha..i tink it may sound stupid ba i dunno y la..juz feel tat life is so meaningless to mi now..everything is like going against mi..is there anything with my character or appearanc..y *her* image keep appearing in my mind.. i try to accept other gers but no one seem to be able to make mi forget her..she is like drifting away further n further from mi..i cant bear to lose her.. wad i wan was onli to protect her but i dunno whether my action may prove to be a negative effect on her or let's say pressurise..i dun wan her to get hurt..i prefer i am de one who get hurt instead of her..dunno la..juz feel so f*** up nwdays..i sometime feel like crying out loud but i noe crying is like a form of acting to gain sympathy but there's not wad i mean ba..sometime i tink her is becuming more n more like an illusion to me...i sometimes juz wish her to send mi an sms or tok to mi in msn like hw r u or thing like tat... i am aso a human, i need concern esp from someone that prove so much to u.. maybe i expect too much from her as she having A level ba..but de feeling she giv mi were like she does not even care abt mi.. can someone tell mi wad way hav i do wrong ???i dun wan to sink deeper..i hav waited her for 3 yrs but i dunno if my wait hav worthwhile..am i reali so hopeless person????this 3 yrs have been up n down for mi..i dare not get into another relationship becoz i scare tat thing like tat may happen to mi again.. but to be frank, i reali hope her can be my side when i needed her most..it may sound impossible or wishful tinking but i juz hope miracle can happen to mi juz ONCE...
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
1:02 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
New blog for mr kenny
Post ur first entry and delete off this.. u need at least 1 entry to keep this blog alive.
Searching for the 'Y'ou.
9:27 PM
